idk

Somethings about life I don’t understand. Things change so drastically in no time at all and everything is completley different. For one reason or another I was looking at a friend from high school’s facebook page. It turns out that he has cancer. He is a year younger than I am and he has cancer. I feel like I am missing some huge piece of a puzzle. I feel like crying when I read his updates saying things like “I never thought I would miss my hair”. I almost feel like a jerk cause I didn’t know until now becuase he made a post about chemo. I dont know. I just don’t even know. This is the world we live in. Lord willing.

May the Lord be with us

we await the dawn

I thank you Lord for making music. I am so glad He has blessed us with such an amazing gift. It has the power to literally change a heart. So many things happen when I hear a song I like. I get this feeling in my chest that is like tightening but I only know it as the feeling I get with new good songs. It amazes me that the same chord patterns and combination have been used throught the ages and it still has such an effect on my heart when they come together just right.

Tonight I got to worship with among other beautiful people, a few guys from Tennessee and they are in a band called The Glorious Unseen. For the first time in a very long while I was able to just sit and take part in God’s presence. I was able to be led into His secret and only place. It felt good. It felt good to talk to a leader of worship and hear him reaffirm things in my brain. Just a normal guy who has the same passion and eart as I do for the people and leading them into His presence.

Also tonight I recieved a message from a guy I went to high school with name Stephen. It was a very direct message saying simply “I know you used to be straight-edge and I need to find God so can you please help me.” My heart was overjoyed to see those words. Not because It was my time to shine or anything close to that. It just moves my heart to know the the Lord has chosen me to do something so important as helping this young man through drug problems to find his saviour Jesus. I hope that you will pray for stephen. I love Jesus.