January 16, 2011

Oh God be my everything be my delight. Be Jesus, my glory, my soul satisfied.


A Fresh Start

December 1, 2010

So I realize I haven’t used this blog in over a year now and I don’t expect anyone to have been checking each day for something new. I feel this new beginning will probably go largely unnoticed by many. Thats okay by me. This is really more of an exercise for my own growth. I feel like I don’t often share my thoughts and feelings these days and I have come to sort of hate it. Im not really worried about anyone how many people will read this but more about the decreasing amount of real-estate in my brain for new thoughts and ideas. So I am hoping that maybe I can clear some space if I write or type it out. At least I can get back to it. Besides I am often browsing the web for other peoples thoughts on news and stuff and have been more of a watcher than a contributor. I guess I want to add something to the mix of things. I just hope I can for consistency and stay true to the plan. Write. Simple enough. So here is to the future of shared feelings and new ideas!

October 6, 2009

It’s crazy to see sometimes how much Jesus can affect people who aret even considered to be a “Christian”. I am sure Steve Harvey has told his fair share of dirty jokes being a stand up comedian, but he was obviously affected enough to stand in front of a stadium full of people who were there to hear his comedy and talk about our glorious king. I think he has a little better understanding of the power and the majesty that is Jesus than maybe we do sometimes. I hope that we can all get excited because all of these things that he says about our Lord, that is exactly who we are sharing to people. The most amazing man to have ever lived. But He is much more than a man.

this is my heart

July 8, 2009

Romans 12: 1-2

“And so dear brothers and sisters, I plead with you to give your bodies to God because of all He has done for you. let them be a living and holy sacrifice-the kind He will find acceptable. This is truly the way to worship Him. Don’t copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to know God’s will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect.”

I feel like there is so much wisdom and instruction inside of these two verses alone that we could plot the course for the rest of our lives using only these as guidelines. First thing I notice is that paul is pleading with his brothers and sisters. Something I am familiar with as of late. When people plead its usually something very serious they are talking about. In this case he is pleading with them to offer their bodies as a sacrifice to the Most High, in remembrance of the greatest sacrifice ever. Not that big of a deal seemingly. The thing is though is that all throughout the bible sacrificial offerings were always the best of the best. The best bull or ram, the best of the flock, or even the very best fruit of the land. All of the best of these was brought before God and sacrificed. He wants the best we have to offer. I feel like these two verses aren’t taken as literally as they should be. Offering your body to God so that it will be an acceptable sacrifice could really cover a whole array of things we can do to keep ourselves in the best condition. Like say more exercise and less eating. Or refraining from drinking or smoking. Holding a grudge against someone or gossiping. Or even choosing not to use words deemed foul and inappropriate. All of these things seem to be more or less suggestions as to how we should live, but what if they were more. What if this were the standard to which we as disciples of the Lord Jesus are to live by. If so I feel we have all fallen incredibly short. Myself included. I honestly believe though, that this is exactly what they are. Not mere suggestions for a healthy life but instructions on how to correctly prepare ourselves to be a sacrificial offering to our Lord.

He asks us to do this in remembrance of “All He has done for you.” So you would think that it would be no big deal then to just opt to not do some things and make a habit to start doing some others. But there is a problem. I believe that we feel entitled to our right to opt out of living according to this. We should have a choice wether or not we should keep our bodies physical healthy to the best of our abilities. We should be able to choose wether or not we drink alcohol or ingest other harmful substances. After all, we can do what we want right? Well I believe we could, but it would be in contradiction to the notion that we were disciples of the One True God. I feel like doing something even if it may not hurt you now, just because you can, may not be the best reason to do it in light of His sacrifice for our sin. It isn’t limited to just our physical selves either. Its also our mental and emotional selves. We were all born into this sinful world, that we had not much of a choice in. But we who say we believe in Jesus and we believe in His death and resurrection could at least have the wisdom to sacrifice our right to those things in order to honor the sacrifice that was so willingly made for us. A sacrifice that when considering the magnitude of His actions, will always bring us to our knees in adoration and reverence. The last part of the first verse is the best part. It says “this is truly the way to worship Him”. But wait, there was nothing about singing songs in there. Or even anything about regularly attending church. What the heck right? Well I think this is something that maybe we know but maybe also gets overlooked more than it should. Worship is about the choices you make in your life. Yes going to church is necessary and singing songs is possibly my favorite thing to do but worship is about how you are living when you are not going to church. Or even when your not basking in His presence in the midst of a deep and moving song or message. We can be constantly worshiping and praising our Lord simply by choosing to do things His way. Its not hard to find. Just open a bible and His way is laid out for you everything spelled out.

Paul goes on to say in verse 2, “Don’t copy the behavior and customs of this world.” Well what does that even mean? There are certain things that we must do in order to live our lives on this earth. That might include things like getting a job or having a family. What I believe is being referenced here are the gray area things that people will possibly forever argue over what is right and what is wrong. Things like abortion and homosexuality and pre-marital sex. All of these things are behaviors exhibited by this world that aren’t necessary in order to live our lives and also line up with the description of disciple. Now I know that some of these things are more specifically pointed out in scripture as being flat out not right and some are a little less clear. Regardless, they all have one thing in common. They all seem to be things that people start doing in order to solve a problem. Its the same with drug and alcohol abuse as well or even harboring ill feelings towards someone. Its a place that people of this world will go to in order to fill a hole. Even to deal with consequences. But I can say that most if not all of them have probably failed us in a huge way. Paul says to let God transform your mind so that you will think differently and begin to see and understand His purpose for your life. He will make this known to you, and you will start to see that right or wrong, legal or illegal, you wont ever have to turn to anything else but the One True God to fill the hole and solve your problems.

I pray that God can change our thought processes to automatically default to Him when we need help. Instead of going to all of these quick answers to complicated problems. Fleeting and superficial behaviors that will leave you in a worse place at some point than you were when you started. God wants to make Himself known to all men. Unfortunately the only way he can do this is through us. His “disciples”. Humans that are susceptible to sin and everything that comes from it. That is why it is so important to look in His word and find His perfectly detailed instructions on how to make our lives an acceptable sacrificial offering to Him. We need to be mirrors of His glory and splendor. He can only make us into that when we have given Him our entire existence. Everything we have, laid at His holy feet, in remembrance of the colossal sacrifice that He made for us. We are to be in this world and not of it.

This is what’s on my heart.

Friendly Atheist

June 1, 2009

I was just reading an article on a website called The Friendly Atheist dot com and it was talking about how a house church meeting “got shut down” in San Diego. Most people are saying they got shut down for religious reason because an officer dealing with the situation asked the couple who owned the home questions like “do you pray?” and “do you say praise the lord?”

I guess it was actually because the city got complaints because of parking issues and a neighbors friends car was hit by one the of the people who attended the church meeting. But the most intriguing thing to me was tht the writer of this article asked a question at the end. “At what point should a house church be considered a full-blown church? Is it a matter of people or money or something else entirely?”

Its funny to me that an atheist would ask a question like that because I feel it would be more appropriate coming from someone who believes in God. I think as christians we should ask ourselves what is it that really makes a church? one would hope the answer isn’t anything less than life changing.


May 26, 2009

Somethings about life I don’t understand. Things change so drastically in no time at all and everything is completley different. For one reason or another I was looking at a friend from high school’s facebook page. It turns out that he has cancer. He is a year younger than I am and he has cancer. I feel like I am missing some huge piece of a puzzle. I feel like crying when I read his updates saying things like “I never thought I would miss my hair”. I almost feel like a jerk cause I didn’t know until now becuase he made a post about chemo. I dont know. I just don’t even know. This is the world we live in. Lord willing.

May the Lord be with us

we await the dawn

May 20, 2009

I thank you Lord for making music. I am so glad He has blessed us with such an amazing gift. It has the power to literally change a heart. So many things happen when I hear a song I like. I get this feeling in my chest that is like tightening but I only know it as the feeling I get with new good songs. It amazes me that the same chord patterns and combination have been used throught the ages and it still has such an effect on my heart when they come together just right.

Tonight I got to worship with among other beautiful people, a few guys from Tennessee and they are in a band called The Glorious Unseen. For the first time in a very long while I was able to just sit and take part in God’s presence. I was able to be led into His secret and only place. It felt good. It felt good to talk to a leader of worship and hear him reaffirm things in my brain. Just a normal guy who has the same passion and eart as I do for the people and leading them into His presence.

Also tonight I recieved a message from a guy I went to high school with name Stephen. It was a very direct message saying simply “I know you used to be straight-edge and I need to find God so can you please help me.” My heart was overjoyed to see those words. Not because It was my time to shine or anything close to that. It just moves my heart to know the the Lord has chosen me to do something so important as helping this young man through drug problems to find his saviour Jesus. I hope that you will pray for stephen. I love Jesus.


April 4, 2009

I hope that in heaven I will have a great beard. Lord willing.

A Toast!

February 7, 2009

So I got my hair cut today. It is weird because it is super short but I dont feel bad about it. Also I got a new hard drive for my laptop so I can have more space and I am now remembering just how many things I had personalized to my specific tastes and requirements that I now have to go through and re-create. I feel like a lot of things are sort of starting over for me. I have a fresh new install of OS 10.5 and I got a fresh new hair do. I also recently lost my job and despite the incredible dissapointment it was, I feel like now I am open to fresh new opportunities in my life. It’s like God has cleared my path of all of the old things in my life and He is making it new. A new creation.

I am not sure where in life I am going to go from here, but I do know that I have yet again been given an even greater opportunity to serve His purpose in an unconditional way. I have no excuse but to rely on Him for all of my needs so He can use me to fulfill the needs of His kingdom.

So, I propose a toast!
To new Beginnings!


It’s super cold outside.

October 23, 2008

It is now 4:45 in the morning and I think that when I do finally get to sleep I could not think for a second that I wasted this day. I literally just came inside from standing outside for almost two hours I would say having one of the most challenging conversations with one of my closest friends. It sucks when as a third party you look into others lives and see the things they do and almost instinctively point out to yourself what they need to work on, when you yourself are no saint.

But I do believe that there comes a time in everyone of our lives when, being a friend and also being a sinner myself, we need to help people realize the things that are holding them back from being where they want to be. Its almost like a desperate cry for help in some cases becuase you could be talking with them about anything and all of a sudden it goes in the direction of “man i dont even know whats going on any more” and “I can’t even handle this right now in my life” and “I wish I could be in a better place spiritually.” You take on this role of leadership that we may not be qualified for in every sense of the word but given that we have not steered the conversation purposefully in that direction I would place a safe bet on God calling you to be there.

It’s good to know that people still need help, because it tells me that there is still a reason to live right. It gives us more initiative to take on the life long task of living the word of God. Of being a mirror for His glory. I implore you to never waste an opportunity. Though our time may be short here in this life we know, thats no excuse to let that be a reason to stop. It should put a fire underneath us and continue to boil us over so we could not contain the message we have even if we tried. Every breath you take should scream His name and there should be no doubt among anyone of who you are.

If you find that there may be in your life, you had better get to fixing it.